It’s been a while since I posted, but I just had an urge. We completed the 18th TLC Retreat a couple days ago, and now I am on vacation for two weeks! I have never done this, just taken time off and stayed home. I guess it is the classic “staycation.”
What I am hoping, is to simply catch up in a few areas. That’s one thing I have learned – to keep my own “house” in order. Otherwise, impulses emerge, as the feelings of overwhelm pick up.
It has now been 9 years of almost continuous pullfree and pickfree time. And before that it was constantly improving. I had one small episode of pulling, shortly after my father died in January of 2007, but pulled out all my tools and simply committed to using them. Within about 4 days I was again pullfree.
Is it perfect? Actually – yes. If this is how I need to manage the rest of my life, so be it. After all the early years of entrapment, shame and self loathing, to be this free is simply a miracle. Hard-won, but a miracle nonetheless.
My fondest hope is to shorten the time for gaining a strong recovery for others. I am hoping to jot down my own path, the tools I use, and the processes that changed my life in the next two weeks. At least to start!
Now that I have some time….
love to all, Christina
3 Comments
Thank you for writing your blog. It has been a valuable source of insight and encouragement. I will never be able to express the depth of my gratitude to you for forming TLC. As the parent of an 11 year old daughter living with Trich, you and TLC have enabled our family to deal with this challenging condition. Thank you again.
R-E-L-A-X darling. Enjoy this time. Go at your own pace. Maybe even break out some beads
Cindy
Dear Christina,
I hope you had a much deserved relaxing staycation. I love those kind of breaks. I look forward to reading about your path, tools and the processes you spoke of in this entry. I hope you know how much you impact the lives of people who for what ever reasons can’t get to the retreats, workshops, conferences and who don’t have access to someone therapeautically. Your support through the blog is like finding gold. It provides one with the feeling of potential, hope, and lightness about recovery. Thank you for everything you’ve done since the beginning. I greatly look forward to hearing more about your path and tools.
Be Well,
Jackie