My story is not necessarily a success story, or it might not be from your point of view. But, for me it is a success story. I was very young when I started pulling. I started with my eyelashes and from there continued onto my eyebrows. I do not know how many times I have tried to stop since I started pulling. Only one time did I succeed, and even then I stilled pulled some, but since I was pulling so few it was not very obvious.
I consider my story a success because of where I am now. And I want to be an encouragement to others. It is not easy to reach the point that I have reached in my journey. It is a journey. Each day I make a choice and that choice affects the direction that my journey will take me. Generally my decision is to continue on the same path. While this may not be considered the best option, I have learned to accept me for who I am. I do not think that I will ever understand why God has allowed me to be who I am, a puller, but I know that in some way or how He is using me for part of His big plan.
I have had to overcome being extremely self-conscious. I thought that I was ugly because that was how I was choosing to see myself. I was letting my feelings of guilt for pulling “change” my physical appearance. I cannot say that I feel beautiful every day, but I can say that the majority of days I do. It is all about getting up out of the bed and turning my face into the sun and knowing that God and many people love me. And remembering that I need to love myself. I must love who I am.
My way of dealing with the fact that I have almost no eyelashes or eyebrows is using eyeliner and eyebrow-liner. It actually works quite well. Another thing I had to overcome was the feeling that I was hiding behind my makeup. I have come to realize that I am not hiding. I am simply being the person that I am and living life. Interestingly enough I get compliments on my makeup and people are surprised to learn that I do it myself and that I do it every single day. That has helped me to be more confident about my makeup.
People never see me without makeup. Only a few people have seen me in recent years with little makeup on and that is in the morning when I have not had time to wipe off the old makeup and put on the new. The other day I did something that I thought that I would never be able to do. I did my makeup in front of my best friend. That was a big step for me and it was completely worth it. My hands were shaking, but I was able to do it! It amazed me because to me accomplishing that means that I am comfortable with who I am.
The last thing that I want to say is that I hope that the people that read my story will realize that they too can overcome their difficulties. Even the things that we see as impossible are not! Anything is possible: Never give up hope.